in case you didn’t know, one of my guilty pleasures is reality tv. in particular, the bachelor and the bachelorette. i think it was during jason & molly/melissa’s season last year when i happened to be checking my facebook page at the same time that i just started making remarks in my status update while i was watching the show. little did i know the craze that would ensue and now, over a year later, there is a forum of folks who ‘meet’ on my page every monday night as we discuss the bachelorette in real time. two of my hometown friends, carrie & caroline, are my ‘co-hostesses’. (i call us two blondes and a brunette.)
i promise there is a point to me telling you all of this and you don’t have to watch the show to get it.
in the midst of making it known just how single i am and how i want to be single and i’m just fine by myself and power to the woman and ‘look at me! i’m single!’ and i’m proud to be single and maybe-i’m-just-meant-to-be-single-forever-and-that’s-okay-with-me and bladisinglenessblah blah blah, this week’s episode REALLY hit a nerve in me.
monday night’s episode would have -and did- upset everyone who was a part of the dialogue that night. (if it didn’t, it should have.) frank made some incredibly poor choices and everyone said so. and then there was me. i.was.L I V I D. to the point some of my friends said, “you should write a blog about it!” i knew i would have to wait a few days before i did so, in order to give myself time to unpack why i felt so strongly about it all. i’m not there yet, which is why this particular blog is only ‘layer one of the onion’.
monday night wasn’t about frank and ali. it was about mary kathryn. i’ve had enough therapy to know that i was handed an onion that night and it’s time i start peeling it. crap.
i’m not sure how this is going to work. i know god & myself well enough to know that i probably won’t get just one new revelation about it each day in time to wrap it up in a new, neat little blog to be published by 9:30 each morning. and it won’t be a 3-point sermon, to be sure. what is most likely to happen is i will peel back one layer at a time, mulling over each one for a few days at a time which will culminate here and there as ‘the onion’. and you know how onions are: when raw and plain, they are stinky, strong and they make you cry. and so, it is with great vulnerability i invite you to read my ‘journal’ about this, if you will.
and in the meantime, i am certain i will have other really deep wisdom and inspiring thoughts that will change.your.life, so stick around for joy.
has anything struck a nerve in you lately that has beckoned your introspection? don’t be afraid. you’re safe.
and for those who haven’t had as much therapy as i have, what did you think of this week’s episode?